Looks like a new beginning

These past couple of weeks have been tough. Not only physical but also emotional draining. Not only the move was exhausting but being on dialysis It can make it ten times harder than it already is. It seems like after the move to Irvine everything has gone down hill. you may ask what went down hill well first of all my motivation to stay focus on my fitness, eating, and more importantly my spirituality. It's really been a roller coaster. Numerous people that I talked to that have been on dialysis tell me the number one thing to do is stay focus and fight. There are days when you don't want to get out of bed but you have to force yourself out of it. I have been through that already!!! It doesn't feel we'll. According to my PD nurse depression is a major problem in PD patients. I totally agree with her on that . Thats where my God comes into play in all of this. He is the true source for strength. 

You know in my opinion...we'll actually its not an opinion it's the truth. You don't know who God truly is in till you have reached rock bottom in your life because that is when we approach God in a humble and sincere way. The God that created the cosmos, The God that fed 5000 in the middle of the desert with 5 loaves of bread and 2 fish. If God can do all of this for his children wouldn't he do something simple such as healing you or me from our sickness or sin? Why do we question God? Our faith is  very weak.Everyday we put our faith into something Whether it be our brakes in our car. Hoping they don't fail and they work properly. Or a chair that we sit on that it doesn't collapse on us lol which can be very embarrassing.. That has happened to me before lol. I will tell you this reader I'm not sure if you Are a believer or not but I am a winner in all of  this...What do I mean? Either there is a God and I am saved from eternal Hell and that is when I'm a winner. Or there is no such thing as God and I have still lived a peaceful and joyful life while believing a made up religion and come up a winner.It's a win win situation!!!!! Lets be realistic both sound nice but the first one is better right and its true. If Im not convinced by now on who God really is then I'm not sure how much more evidence I need with the history to look at and looking at my life and how he carried me through the struggles. God is real and wants a relationship with you and I!!!!

Mike 

On the list!!!!!!

Last week I found out that I got on the kidney registry which is a huge relief for Tory and I. Took a while but with patience God was faithful and he delivered. It's just a matter of waiting for a kidney. It can take 1 day or 5 years but he will deliver again. 

God is great, God is good thank you for everything.Amen

Learned a lesson today from God's truth

Church was great tonight!! Talk about feeling the Holy Spirit tonight . I was high on the Holy Spirit..hope I didn't offend anyone on that remark if I did I'm sorry..if you are you can blame it on my wife because she made that up..hahahhaha....No seriously God was with me tonight and I just had a chat with him. He told me (I'm paraphrasing of course) Mike do you know that in the course of your sickness you are bringing glory to me? Not only after you die or if I choose to heal you, but during your trial. I got hit with the truth there. It's funny because I feel like I'm not bringing glory to God but I guess I was wrong because I asked my wife and she said yes. I won't talk about the specifics but people around us (friends,family) have expressed it to her.
I would just like to say if anyone is going through some kind of illness whether it be physical or mental and you are feeling hopeless and down I just want to say God cares and loves you there is powerful scripture to back that up "For God so loved the world that he gave his only son,so that everyone who believes in him will not perish but have eternal life." John 3:16 You are not an accident and you have a purpose. Look to him for Strength he is the only true source to that because we cannot do it alone.
My pastor once said "Our greatest weakness is our greatest ministry" Rick Warren. Finally!!! I know what my ministry is. Been searching for it... Here it is...Compassionate towards the ill. Praise God..

I mentioned last week that I had to partake on another test and I completed it,so I will find out the results hopefully this week. The nurse told me this is the last breathing test that I can have. When she told me that I was relieved to hear that. I'm curious to find out what's the next step? It's up to sharp hospital. What other test can they order? I will see this week I guess.


Pray Hard!!!!

Tory and I

A life of patience

I titled this blog life of patience because well its pretty self explanatory God is putting me through the waiting game and teaching me patience. I know it's for my own benefit as far as building perseverance and character but its tough. I am blessed for the amount of support I have from my family and friends

I was just told by my pulmonary doctor that I have to go through another test that would include a breathing test again. This test will determine if I have asthma or not. We cant go forward With the kidney transplant in till I take this test. I just want this tube out of my stomach already. The test is next Tuesday morning 

"Be still and know that I am God" Psalm 46:10

Pulmonary testing completed

Last week I went through testing for the problem that I have been having with my chest. I will find out the results on may 9th. However, their is one more test to complete and that is a lupus panel test which will determine if I have lupus or not.All this testing is for my kidney transplant it is mandatory in order to take the next step any further. Lupus testing was something that was done 14 years ago but I wouldn't be a bad idea to participate in that testing again. Their can be a chance the last test was inaccurate. Wouldn't it be a miracle if they found out that I didn't have lupus.

Sharp hospital called me a week or two ago and wanted to know what was the status on the testing and I told them I haven't got tested yet for my chest. They told me to get a hold of them as soon as I'm done with the testing. I'm grateful that they are on top of things and they care about my needs. I knew it in my heart that this was the perfect place to be. God has his hands on this for sure.

For about a month or more I have been working out. Been doing cardio on the treadmill for twenty minutes everyday. I'm gradually going up.. I'm using resistance bands for every part of my body. I can only used the bands because using free weights is hard on my joints and they will eventually will flair up. Also, I am taking vitamin B-12 for my joints which have been helping me a lot. Since I have been working out I have noticed a difference in my strength,fatigue,and my confidence. It is not easy completing my workout everyday. There are days where I don't feel like getting out of bed but I force myself to because that's all that I can do. Focus on God and my family..period


The godly may trip seven times, but they will get up again. But one disaster is enough to overthrow the wicked. (Proverbs 24:16 NLT)

Waiting waiting and waiting

As I mentioned on my last blog I got referred to a pulmonary specialist and today I saw the physician. He asked me why I was referred to him and I explained to him that I was having problems with my breathing. Then he asked me another set of questions. Prior to this appointment I had other tests done such as an angiogram and a breathing test. The angiogram test came out normal according to the physician but however the breathing test came out Abnormal. So the physician ordered a cat scan of my lungs and some more comprehensive tests. The physician said we should have all this done in 4-6 weeks. At that very moment a thought rushed into my mind "waiting waiting and waiting" but I erased that thought out of my mind and I pulled myself together and told God "God it's based on your timing not mine, I give you my worries, my doubts,my anguish, for you will deliver me out of this trial that I am facing at this moment of my life." Amen lord Jesus....what other God can perform miracles such as my God.A God who can tell a crippled person to walk again or A God who departs the Red Sea and last A God who controls the lions from not eating Daniel into shreds in the lions dean!!! My God is a just and faithful God full of grace and mercy!!

As far as the pain goes with the dialysis it his still there at times. My PD nurse changed my prescription which includes more fluid on my peritoneal cavity. So I have more of a beer belly than ever before lol.

I've said it once and I have said it a thousand times anyone who knows me I am always....always thankful for my wife!!!!! Who is maturing as a Christian women as god made her to be.